This week in Katie Orr’s study, Everyday Hope, she points out, “We can be saturated with truth yet drowning in hopelessness.” I can relate. I’ve felt that way a lot lately. As I dug into Ephesians 1:15-22 with the rest of the Bible Study Hub I really wasn’t sure I was going to find the answers I was looking for.
It’s been a challenging week. Among other things, my oldest daughter is getting ready to transition from middle school to high school.
Friends, I’m not ready for this. In fact, as I sat at the parent meeting yesterday I wanted to stand up with my hands on my hips and shout out at the school counselor, “I don’t want to do this and YOU can’t make me!” I’m not sure what it is about sitting in a middle school commons that made me revert back to the strong willed mindset and thought process of a middle schooler, but somehow that’s exactly what happened to me. Fortunately I was able to keep those thoughts to myself as I bowed my head low, moved my glare to the paper in front of me, and scratched notes about the many choices that needed to be made.
Focus is an amazing thing. When my heart is swirling with a thousand emotions that threaten to overtake my common sense the ability to focus on a single task often helps me to maintain my composure until the moment passes. It’s one of the reasons I love Katie Orr’s FOCUS(ed) 15 studies. Through them I am able to practice the art of focusing in on one bit of scripture, unwrapping it slowly and intentionally, allowing the truth of it to penetrate and change me.
As questions loom ahead for my daughter’s future and mine I realize I’ve lost confidence in my ability to make the right choice. I don’t know how to move forward. I do trust God. I do know He has a plan, but I can’t see the next step. I feel trapped. Stuck. Alone. Afraid to move. Afraid to breathe. So I grip tightly to the path that lies behind me and take fast shallow breaths.
“Grace is glory begun.” ~Matthew Henry
My study of Ephesians 1:15-22 this week was like remembering to breathe. I finally exhaled all that I’d been holding too tightly and breathed in the real promises of God.
I have been called. I can be confident of God’s presence in my life and the purpose He has for me. The purpose He has for my children.
When I don’t know what to do I need to remember to stop and pray. Pray for wisdom. Pray for revelation. Pray to know God’s will and plan better. Pray for the eyes of my heart to be enlightened so that I will remember the hope of God’s calling. The richness of my inheritance is in the power of God. He is mighty enough to raise the dead, certainly He can move the mountains in my way and illuminate my path.
When I’m walking in God’s power I can’t fail. When I seek His truth I can’t miss. When I look past the temporal state of my being I begin to see the eternity held in His hands.
My hope can never be in my own understanding, my own wisdom, my own truth. My hope comes from the LORD alone. That hope is the light that illuminates my path.
This post is my summation of the study I’ve been doing with Katie Orr and a bunch of other friends titled: Everyday Hope. You can find links to more summation posts here. We would love it if joined Bible Study Hub, a Facebook group full of women who love God and endeavor to learn more about Him through Bible study. Although it’s a closed group we would be excited to welcome you in, just request to join. And if your January is already jam packed with start of the year goodness then I invite you to join us for Everyday Love in February. Everyday Love is available to order now!