Trust: to have trust or confidence in; rely or depend on. to believe.
I have always been a worrier. I’ve been certain I must take care of everything, handle the world’s problems on my own. This causes stress. Stress my body was never intended to manage. And my body manages it poorly. It is now to the point that it is having a very real, very negative, impact on my health.
This week I suddenly became, an otherwise healthy, 34 year old woman with high blood pressure.
Simply because I fail to trust.
Trust is my one word resolution this year. I need to trust. It’s the only way I’ll be able to let go of all the stuff I try to control or carry.
I’ve spent some time learning about trust. I was surprised to discover that an antonym of trust is disbelief. And I realize, deep within myself, in that place that only God and I know about, I have disbelief. This is my greatest sin.
Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life. He does not come into judgment, but has passed from death to life. –John 5:24
Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live…” –John 11:25
“Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father.” –John 14:12
Over and over again the Bible tells me to believe. Believing is at the very core of my salvation.